Two Faces One Side of the Card

What has happened inside my heart

I ran in the wild and find myself alone

Were what happened months ago a false start

Am I now only stuck in the friend zone

 

I picked out a card from the deck

It has to be the two of cups again

Is my love to be a permanent wreck

Will I ever be able to find my Zen

 

Why can’t I find my middle ground

A person who loves all of me

Not just one who wants to fool around

But one who can look past and see

 

The ones I know like that are gone

Or just don’t see me that way

Will my heart ever see the dawn

Before my passion begins to sway

 

I have not yet made up my mind

Should I make a move or hold fast

I’m not like most of mankind

My mind is not a jumble but vast

 

I understand what you try to convey

No judgment or cruel mind games

To me finding love is not play

And these are not light claims

 

I know who I am and what I want

But who can ever handle the truth

I am not trying to act like a flaunt

But I am not it the least uncouth

 

Will I ever find the face in the mirror

The other cup in this set of two

Or is it to the ocean like a single tear

Something that will never come thru