JinxZodiac

It is a night of dark desire,

A song of ethereal pain,

Wolves vent their loneliness.

The immortal one awakes.

Mist shrouds her pale form,

An everlasting desire.

Her silken hair cascades over shoulders,

And her full crimson lips part slightly,

 To taste the life streaming

From the pale flesh beneath her.

Now a night of ecstasy,

I remember her.

The mourners gather.

My dread grows as doom's scythe

Falls against my heart.

It smites me, and darkly

My essence drips to the dead grass.

In abject fear I fall limply

While the end of life takes my hand.

Now alone, my soul falls upon darkened eyes.

This is death

The bar before had fifty on tap

The one up next only has ten

A walk down the street soon changed

Into a drunken sloppy stumble

Pushing the doors wide open

And sit down on a high stool

Keeping you balance barely

Before the last call is uttered

A man sits to you left

He is looking for a fight

You down your cup fast

And throw over the change

He snaps and gets up

Would you like to die tonight

Pull out your gun quick

Before you end up on the floor

He sees your handgun and runs

Swiftly down an ally way

Your boots clank after him

The road stops dead sharply

A flash and a bang later

The man ate his words

Dripping slowly down his face

The cobblestone is red

I awoke from my bed

From a body cold and pale

I am not quite dead

But I can’t claim to be

I have a heart

That does not feel

No more emotions

And no more hurt

What have I become

I hate the skin I’m in

I don’t like the thoughts

And don’t like the sensation

I hate the way this life is

If I could chose

I would change back

To being who I truly am

Nobody would understand

Truly how unhappy I am

In this life of pain

And of love lost

I do not wish to press on

I wish to leave for good

To leave this body behind

And burn the ashes

I feel so weak inside

But I know I’m not

Just tired of it all

On my last string

I don’t want to do it

To make a failed effort

To lose another chance

And roll the dice again

The deck is stacked

And I’m doomed to fall

I might as well quit

While I am ahead

What is there to gain

But death and taxes

Why can’t we be less

More in tuned with nature

All everyone does is take

There is no more give

Out for yourself

And not a backwards glance

No sleep for fear

No peace for greed

No love for spite

No life for humanity

I want to be gone

I want to not suffer

I want it all to end now

I want it all to stop

To be wild once more

To run in the wind

Not to care what others like

And for once to feel free

I am what my spirit is

And it takes me far away

To be a mother and love

But not in their stereotype way

I hate what I am

My skin fells weird

I cannot be me

Because I never was

I go back to my body

And slip inside again

Cramped from being out

Inside my dream land

What has happened inside my heart

I ran in the wild and find myself alone

Were what happened months ago a false start

Am I now only stuck in the friend zone

I picked out a card from the deck

It has to be the two of cups again

Is my love to be a permanent wreck

Will I ever be able to find my Zen

Why can’t I find my middle ground

A person who loves all of me

Not just one who wants to fool around

But one who can look past and see

The ones I know like that are gone

Or just don’t see me that way

Will my heart ever see the dawn

Before my passion begins to sway

I have not yet made up my mind

Should I make a move or hold fast

I’m not like most of mankind

My mind is not a jumble but vast

I understand what you try to convey

No judgment or cruel mind games

To me finding love is not play

And these are not light claims

I know who I am and what I want

But who can ever handle the truth

I am not trying to act like a flaunt

But I am not it the least uncouth

Will I ever find the face in the mirror

The other cup in this set of two

Or is it to the ocean like a single tear

Something that will never come thru